Even though I didn't know him, I gotta pay respect to a homie's homie.
                             Rest In Paradise.
                  Juan Paolo Estrella Arcinue.
                      111587 - 082105.

A word going out to all of those who are his homies. I know you guys are sad, but just remember that he's in a happy place now. For those who where there to try to help him get through, I bet he thanks you guys for tryna help him out. Don't feel bad, it wasn't none of your guys' fault. You comforted him with the best before he left this world &you guys should be proud of yourself for being there for him through his last breaths. Keep his spirit alive with the good memories you guys shared. Juan would be someone I would wanna meet. You guys definatly clicked with one another &I wish I had people I could consider as "down ass homies". Just looking at your group picture from prom, whoo, I knew you guys were the happiest homies ever. Ya'll just keep ya head up ya heard? I know how much you guys are hurting, but remember that he wants you guys to cheer up. He's still with you guys in spirit. (: JP, I know you're up there smiling for us &I hope that you're living good up there man. † God Bless †

082405 - Wow, I was hella breaking down last night. Iono what for, but I was just hella crying. I was telling myself that I was a reject to everyone in society &that no one wanted me here. If they did wanted me here they would try hella hard to be here for me &be nice to me for a change. It's like no one understood me. I wanted to die. I kept on saying that I hated.. *Sigh. Then I though about JP. I guess I just started talking to him right outta the blue like he was in front of me. I got up and sat on my bed &invited him to have a seat if he would like. &I was like, "If I could trade my life to bring yours back, I would cos I know your homies &family hella want you back." It was cool though. I told him how it would've been nice if I met him &I told him that Travis told me that JP was the first dude to ever say wsup to Travis back in kindergarten &shiet. Man, I acted as if I knew JP. Maybe he was here in my room in spirit. I kinda felt a chill just sitting up &talking to him like that, but yunno what? It was hella cool. I talked to him for about an hour before I decided to go to sleep. I kept on saying, "I just don't understand how your car just swerved off the road like that. I mean, dude.. I wanna know what happened." It was nice having someone to talk to that late at night last night. I mean.. yeah I was crying.. but at least there was some there to listen. Doesn't need to be physically, in spirit is good enough. Then before I said good night to him I was like. "Aye bro, come visit me in my dreams sometime &say wsup. If you want me to tell Travis anything just tell me &I'll tell Travis. Dude, hopefully you're really in my presence cos I don't wanna be knowin that I talked to myself for an hour. Ah haha." Then I let him go because I was like, "Man.. I bet you gots hella other people visit tonight. I wish I could go to your burial &iish, but I don't think I'ma know anyone there." Yeah. Then I said good night &thanked him for keeping me company. I woke up at like 7 this morning thinkin, "Dude, did I dream of JP? Nah.." I went back to sleep &had one last dream.. There was this dude there.. I never really got a good look at him, but I saw him two times. Once I think about it.. I was thinkin to myself that it was him. Man! He didn't say wsup like he was supposed to. (: The End. Wow, so much for being someone I don't know. RIP bro!